I will become somebody’s wife in approximately 56 hours.

What do I feel now?

A mixture of everything

Excited, nervous, happy, sad, calm, afraid, every bit of the many feelings.

I rasa syukur that finally I found the man whom I know is the perfect match for me. He is not Mr Perfect, but he has everything to balance my life, and for that I am thankful. I never thought I would finally meet my Darling K. After all the heart break moments I had to go through, God apparently save the best for last. DK came at the right time, in which, at first knowing him, I never thought I would ended up marrying him. But as I’m writing this, I know he is worth all the pain I had to go through earlier. I never gave up hope of settling down with the right man. “Ungakapan Jodoh itu memang Allah yang tetapkan, tetapi sebagai hambanya kita harus berusaha untuk mendapatkannya. Jodoh tak datang bergolek depan mata” that is what I always tell myself. Tried everything but never gave up. I eat everyday, I pray everyday but never let go of hope to find THE LOVE.

I met DK about a year ago. It is actually funny how I knew him. He is not in my friends circle, never knew before this man. But sometime in August last year, when I thought I was really heart broken, DK came into the picture. Apparently my issue of kena leter by my mother to get married is also an issue for him with his mom. He was 36 last year, being the eledest, mak mana tak bising tengok anak dia tak kahwin-kahwin lagi. Out of stress, he decided to write to Light & Easy radio station about his problem (after listening the advert on the radio) His intention at that time was to hope a girl will listen and tell him, OK! Let’s get Married and save the day!

But the radio station did not respond immediately, only after 3 months he wrote that they decide they would published his problem for the morning show. I don’t listen to that particular station. But on that 13th August 2009, my boss and colleagues were calling me very early in the morning. I did not realise the many miss calls until I reached office.

The minute I arrived, both my boss and Abby said : “Aiyoh, Aida, kenapa tak jawab phone? We wanted you to listen to the radio this morning. There was this one mamat, his name is Khairul.. Dia stress mak dia leter suruh kawen!”

And my selamba replied : “So???”

My boss said it will be good for me get to know this mistery guy as we both have same issue : Mak leter suruh kawen!!! We would understand each other and I can just forget the misery that I was going through at that time. Go on a date, try something new and exciting, no point nak bergundah gulana.

The first thing came on my mind at that time was “Poyonya mamat ni! Macam lah masalah dunia mak leter suruh kawen sampai nak masuh radio!”

And I totally ignored my boss and colleague. But they did not stop there, the whole office was practically talked about it the whole day! And still feels it was a good idea I find this mamat name Khairul Adlan. I ingored, but I did listen to the station the next day. His problem was aired for 2 days during the morning show (glamer mamat ni!!!) and I heard his voice and all the callers who called in to give their say. Still…. not interested!! Hehehehe. But my boss and colleagues tak give up lagi. After few days, I gave up. I told them whoever can get this mamat email or handphone number, then I will do the rest. Time tu rasa boleh berlagak because I doubt that the radio station will entertain as the show on him has ended. Surprisingly, they replied and gave Abby his email add. (Me and my big mouth!!!) I had no choice, so I wrote him a long email, A VERY LONG ONE! It was a day before my 34th birthday. When I wrote to him, it felt like writing to a long lost friend. I gave him advice, gave him some examples to what extent my mom did to embarrass me, leter me about marriage. I did tell him, if your mom just leter and did not do any of the above embarrassing moment, then there is nothing to worry about, your case is just a small matter! Amik kau, aku yang leter dalam email tu, hehehehe. After proof read ( 3 kali tau) I pressed the send button! And gladly told my boss and everyone I dah hantar email, so jangan kacau I lagi.

And of course, mamat replied!!!!! I was eerrr…. eeerrr…. eeerr….

We started writing emails, then add FB, when I saw his pix, ok gak mamat ni, saw his pix with his family, I can sense he comes from a good family and he is a decent guy. By that time, me, the very peramah Aida Yurani chats with him almost everyday in the cyber world. After 2 weeks, me and my big mouth (again!!) casually asked him out. My intention at that time was pure nothing (actually I takde gang nak buka puasa that Sunday, hehehehe) And mamat said, ok, JOM. So… we met…. we decided to meet at The Curve. I treat him for buka puasa since it was a few days after his 36th Birthday, he belanja coffee at Starbucks after dinner. We talk and talk and talk. Rasa macam dah lama kenal. Then it was raya, and we met again after raya, twice, satu pegi dinner, satu pegi tengok teater. Suddenly after 3 dates, and everyday chat/sms/phone calls, last year 22nd Oct 2009, mamat poyo ni made his bold move.

I teased him and joke about it, as I thought he buat lawak bodoh, but after a while… Alamak, mamat poyo ni SERIOUSSS!!!!!!!…. I terus jadi kelu, tak terkata, terdiam kejap. I ignored him for a few days. But DK never give up. He knew I was going out with 3 different guys at that time, I thank my friends yang made so many effort to matchmake me at that time. I just left DK’s intention for a few days, then dia ajak pegi dinner. So we decided to meet at Italianese at the Curve. He was really gabra that day, janji at Curve, dia pegi One Utama, kelakar betul!!! That night during dinner, him, being the gentleman, made his move. He explained, he asked, he gave reasons why, and so on, still I did not response. He said take all the time I need, He knew I was still hurt, he is not there to be my rebound guy, he is serious.

After a few days, I asked him to meet my brothers, meet my friends, he tagged along with the agenda, being himself. At that point I noted a lot in him. Dia layan ja apa I nak, at the same time I met his siblings. When I told him you need to meet babah, he said OK, Bila? wah… that morning when we had breakfast with babah (mama takde time tu, she was still in Surabaya) I yang gabra terlebih. 2 very important man in my life are meeting with each other for the first time. Diorang relax ja, minum, makan, sembang. I still remembered what babah told me on that day : “Khairul tu betul2 Da… dia bukan main-main. Kakngah macam mana? Dah fikir habis? Babah tak risau dia, I’m worry about you!’

Hmmm…. dia bawak I jumpa his parents, his family, he finally met mama….

On new year, again he pop up the marriage question! By this time I said YES!

We made our plans, we told our family, his family met my family on Valentine Day this year for merisik and discussed about the wedding. Ever since that, I know I am ready for 22nd OCT 2010, exactly a year after he actually asked me to marry him. We had our engagement ceremony on 6th Jun 2010 and I will enjoy the next few days, relax myself, knowing all the preparation for the wedding this weekend is in order.

Thank you my Darling K, thank you for everything, thank you for making me happy, thank you for taking me seriously, thank you for taking me to share the rest of your life with. I am looking forward to grow old together with you.

Now I can live my life. Eat, Pray and Love every single day with you!

Aiseyman, life tersangat busy, sampai lupa update blog. FB pun very limited time dapat masuk. B.U.S.Y.

Ramadhan was great, busy with work, Matt*a Fair, hence tersangat lah busynya. Sales were quite bad, but we survived. A lot of things happened past 2 months, but I put all of them behind and looking forward for the upcoming wedding in 3 weeks time. There were happy and sad moments past 2 months. Salah satu berita sedih 2 hari sebelum Ramadhan ialah kematian ibu saudara saya, Ateh (adik perempuan bongsu adik beradik babah saya)

Arwah akhirnya pergi meninggalkan kami setelah hampir setahun bergelut dengan kanser. Beliau mengalami ketumbuhan dalam perut, berdekatan dengan usus. Sepupu saya yang merawatnya pada awal, pernah menceritakan bahawa tiada apa lagi yang boleh dibuat, it was just a matter of time. Ateh discovered the tumor, approximately about a year ago after going to Hospital for check-up. Tetapi waktu itu telah terlambat untuk arwah berubat, walaupun ada macam2 cara, tetapi disebabkan ketumbuhan itu yang terdiri dari kumpulan2 mukus didalam perutnya sudah terlalu banyak, maka tidak banyak options yang arwah ada. Doktor ada mengesyorkan supaya arwah menjalani pembedahan, tetapi pada masa pembedahan dilakukan, pihak hospital mendapati mukus-mukus tersebut terlalu banyak dan telah menyelaputi usus didalam perut, dan ianya membahayakan usus dan diri arwah diwaktu itu untuk meneruskan pembedahan. Saya ada juga bertanya dengan rakan-rakan doktor yang lain sekadar mendapatkan second opinion, semuanya mengatakan perkara yang sama : a matter of time.

Since Ogos last year, Ateh keluar masuk hospital beberapa kali. Dan semakin lama keadaannya bukan semakin pulih, tetapi merosot secara perlahan-lahan. Tapi alhamdulillah, arwah sempat meluang masa untuk bersama cucu pertama yang baru lahir bulan April baru-baru ini. Sempat juga arwah ateh buat kenduri kesyukuran. Ateh juga menguatkan diri untuk hadir majlis pertunangan saya bulan Jun lepas. Saya sangat terharu tengok keadaan ateh pada waktu itu, dalam keadaan tidak sihat, dia gagahkan diri.

Ingat lagi, banyak kali beliau meminta maaf sebulan sebelum majlis pertunangan berlangsung kerana tidak sempat nak membantu membuat hantaran saya. Memang ateh pakar membuat kerja-kerja seni, tangannya tu kalau membentuk bunga, pasti menjadi. Both my adik and kakteh’s wedding had her touch for the hantaran, dan memang saya pun mengharapnya. Tapi bila mengenangkan kesakitan beliau, dan kesukaran yg akan Ateh hadapi membuat hantaran saya, I mengalah. My Ateh ni was a very soft spoken lady. Jarang tengok dia marah. Kalau dia tegur kita buat salah pun dengan cara yang sangat lembut. I did visit her twice when she was at the hospital. And Ateh sempat datang my parents house in Sungai Petani sometime in June. Pemergiannya sangat saya terasa lebih-lebih lagi time2 nak buat kenduri ni.

Yang buat saya sebak tu, 2 days after Arwah Ateh pergi, anaknya yang sulung called me to inform that her mother ada bagitau few weeks before she passed away, that no matter what happened, dia nak contribute bunga pahar for my wedding. Memang itu kerja dia untuk anak2 sedara belah nenek saya. So, her daughter would like to fulfill among her mom’s many last request. Walaupun dah order, I terima juga another 60 bunga pahar on behalf of Arwah.

Semoga Allah mencucuri Rahmat ke atas arwah Ateh. Alfatihah