Jodoh pertemuan and ajal maut di tangan Tuhan.
Kita selalu mendengar ungkapan di atas. Sesungguhnya memang Allah telah menetapkan qada & qadar untuk setiap hambanNya. Tetapi sebagai manusia yang diberi akal fikiran, kita seharusnya bijak menerima qada & qadar tersebut. I always believe walaupun Allah dah tetapkan jodoh masing-masing, kita tak boleh nak duduk goyang kaki saja tunggu jodoh tu sampai, atau berasa lega kerana jodoh sudah sampai tetapi tidak berusaha untuk mengekalkannya. Di zaman yang serba canggih ni, macam-macam boleh jadi.
Begitu juga dengan ajal. Jangan sesekali mencari maut. Dan jangan sesekali berasa lambat lagi ajal nak sampai. Baik muda atau tua, bila-bila masa pun Allah boleh tarik nyawa kita. Sebagai hambaNya, hendaklah siap sedia sepanjang masa, dunia dan akhirat mesti seimbang.
Ok, ok, mesti ada yang heran awatlah tetiba Aida Yurani jadi skema? 
Few things happened this month buat saya rasa insaf. Minggu ni amat mencemaskan buat keluarga bila nenek Timah (dad’s mom) was not well. Hari Selasa pagi nenek tidak boleh bercakap, lidah kelu, tidak boleh makan, muka and mata menunjukkan tanda-tanda tidak bagus. Tetapi dia ok balik menjelang tengahari, dapat makan macam biasa. Selepas Zohor, dia kembali tenat. My aunties and busu and some of my cousin were already in Gombak at that time. My parents decided to come back from SP as well. I reached Gombak at 6pm, by that time she has recovered and was telling us what she felt earlier. And she was up and about as soon as my parents arrive Gombak just before Maghrib.
It felt like Hari Raya at nenek’s house that Tuesday night. Many people came to visit my grandma upon hearing what happened. Grandaunties, my dad’s cousins, almost all my nenek’s grandchildren were there too. At one point, I kira ada 18 kereta kat laman and outside keliling gate rumah. Nenek was fine that night. But not for long. At 11pm nenek dah start bising suruh semua orang balik Dah malam, nanti lewat sampai rumah, pegi balik… katanya. Nenek ni nampak ja garang and keras hati, tapi deep down dia sangat penyayang. DAN sebagai orang yang dah lama hidup and banyak pengalaman, kadang-kadang apa yang nenek cakap buat saya tak puas hati, adakala nak melenting. Tapi bila hati dah sejuk, and fikir balik, memang patut pun apa yang nenek cakap.
Malam tu semua pulang ke rumah masing-masing, yang tinggal cuma Makngah, Kak Jana (my cousin) and her family, and also Mira, my another cousin. Babah, mama and kakteh decided they will sleep at Opah’s house (belakang rumah nenek), so I went back home to Bukit Antarabangsa. At 1.00am I received a call fo my sister. Kakteh was at nenek’s house again as Nenek was sick again. And this time it became worst. I did not go to Gombak, babah pun tak pagi nak datang sorang2 tengah2 pagi buta tu. So I woke up, mandi and prayed. At 4am my dad called me and informed that nenek dah tak sedar, but she was still breathing. I decided to go to work that morning, settle a few things and come back to Gombak around 11am. But things got worst at 8am, Babah asked me to call our cousin from Mom’s side who is a doctor.
Epi went to my grandma’s house, and as expected, it’s best to send her to the hospital. Ambulance came. Babah accompanied Nenek in the ambulance and the rest followed. By noon she recovered. Alhamdulillah. One night in hospital and she was discharged the next day. Mom said Nenek kept on saying that it was not time for her to ‘go’ yet. She is hosting my kenduri kahwen, so, just not yet.
Of course it will be sad if she will not be around for the wedding, but I think the family is ready if dia takde. Given the fact that she is already 82 years old. Nenek is using a wheelchair to move around, but she is a strong lady. She still cooks! I just hope when it happens for her, bila sampai ajal nenek, she will go smoothly, tak derita sakit tua, dipermudahkan segala urusan buat dia. I am not that very close with nenek (comparing how close I am with my late opah), but as her cucu, I never felt neglected. She is always aware of my ups and downs and from time to time whenever I visit her, she will make sure either she ask or advice. She was very delightful when she heard about me getting married, asyik tanya ja bila nak bawak orang tu jumpa nenek. Boleh nampak dia sengih lebar when I introduced my Darling K to her.
The second story : A dear friend of mine, Sham, passed away 3 weeks ago. I was really shocked when I got the call. I was on the way home to Bukit Antarabangsa after having dinner with Darling K at Bukit Jelutong. Sham’s sister called and informed her brother got heart attact. Terkedu sekejap while driving. He died at a very young age, 32. He was a nice, handsome young man. Kind, ambitous and a dear friend. I knew him for quite some time. We have many common friends, selalu jumpa dekat rumah my friends if they organise party or kenduri or during raya. I tak sedar actually Sham ada hati kat I, memula tahu, tergelak jugak. Was wondering apalah mamat ni nampak kat saya yang gemuk, hitam and pendek (am still the same though). But at the same time I was going out with someone, so I just leave as it is. And then I got to know he had found someone, but it did not last. They went separate ways early last year.
Tapi sometime in August last year, he got to know that I was single and available. He quickly made his move by asking our friends to hook us up. And we did. I went out for coffee with him after terawikh. Memula tu macam gabra lah pulak, I have not gone out with any other guys under pretext of dating. But knowing me yang pandai and banyak cakap, things went easy. After that melarat-larat minum kopi lepas terawikh for the whole month. Dah lah saya bukan jenis minum kopi. Dah ada orang nak layan, ok je lah. He was really an interesting human being. The fact that he is in charge of his dad’s shipping company, made him a very busy man. So we stick to coffee after terawikh sepanjang Ramadhan. He was very particular on not missing terawikh during Ramadhan. Sempat juga berbuka puasa with his family, got to know his siblings and other extended family. At that time, I tak amik pot sangat of his interest in me, I treat him as a friend, he was a good friend indeed. Dia banyak membuka minda saya that it is always better to see out of the box. And dia banyak tolong masa I tak beberapa sihat that time. Ingat lagi, after 3 weeks dia berani kan diri ajak I go on the next level, I was like????? At the same time I was going out with another 2 guys (including my Darling K, hehehehe)
All 3 of them knew I was seeing all 3 of them at the same time, and all 3 of them knew that all 3 of them are having interest on me, and all 3 of them knew sooner or later I have to decide what I’m going to do with all 3 of them, and all 3 of them said they were aware of my just recent heartbroken (at that time) and were willing to wait. I was like?????? Tapi time tu memang best, seronok gila dapat hadiah. Arwah Sham banyak bagi saya barang and akan saya appreciate sampai bila-bila. Tapi kalau dah bukan jodoh saya dengan seseorang, including Sham, saya tak boleh paksa, I learnt that the hard way. He somehow understand. Although mula2 tu payah jugak lah nak terima sebab dia suka saya memang dah lama. And dia start encourage saya belajar menerima Darling K seadanya kalau saya betul2 suka Darling K. My heart at that time macam hati batu. Memang sangat keras. Darling K pun punya hebat jugak memikat, but his simplicity yang buat saya tertarik hati.
Although I was going out with Darling K, saya still keep in-touch dengan arwah. Darling K is fine with it, because I don’t want to let go of his friendship. Sham selalu buat lawak, if it did not materialise between me and Khairul, he is there for me. I senyum ja bila dengar. Last I met Sham in May, 2 weeks before my engagement. We went for breakfast at Mak Jah’s near Ampang. Tak sangka that was the last I saw of him. He was really happy that I finally found my happiness. We talk about many things that day. He did not come for the engagement as he was in Barcelona for work, he came back end of June. I planned to invite him for dinner sometime before puasa, nak introduce Darling K to him and to our common friends, tapi tak sangka dia dah pergi dulu.
He passed away after collapsed at his office. Lucky his brother in-law was at the office that day. Setahu saya dia tak ada apa2 penyakit kronik tapi mungkin Allah lebih sayang kan dia. I went to ziarah jenazah dia before kebumi, and did go for the tahlil. I wish his family akan sabar menerima kehilangan Sham. And I was a very lucky person to know him when he was alive, I will truly miss him. Alfatihah.